GO BENGALS!

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WOW I haven't posted a blog in what seems like forever! I have just been soo busy getting situated in school and adapted to living on my own that I haven't even had a split second to write. But don't fret I am writing now and I will catch up on EVERYTHING!!
Lets see...... events that have taken place since my last post..
I'm sure the biggest thing everyones curious about is college! Wooo... yea not as great as people want to say it is! I mean sure its cool being on your own.. and doing whatever you want when you want... I guess! Ha I mean I don't even do much really. I go to school, do my homework, maybe some laundry here and there haha but really thats about it!

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Well I can't remember if I mentioned before that my parents MADE me live in the dorms or not.. but well yea they did! And honestly its not as bad as I thought! I got a room all to myself and decorated it as cute as I could.. I really only am here to sleep and do my homework so it wasn't a really big deal.. there are alot of cool girls on my floor, and there from all over the world! Its kind of weird because there are girls from Rupert and Declo here too, but that just goes to show how common of school ISU is.. hahah sometimes I feel like I'm back at minico because I see so many people on a daily basis from high school. But thats fine I mean it is a good transistion into the real world :) the thing that mainly sucks is the whole community bathroom situation.. I mean its just weird but I guess it doesn't really matter cuz I get ready in my room and the only thing I do is shower and go pee in there ha it was not fun times at first cuz you have to figure out which showers are gonna be warm and which ones are cold.. but I got it all figured out now :)

Here is some pictures of my DORM ha ha:

It looks even cooler in person!

Couldn't really decide where to put everything, so I put it all up there for now, that tree is really cool in person too.. but sometimes at night everything falls off the wall and I wake up to a huge BANG! Scares the crap outta  me haha

My laundry hamper :) its sooo helpful and makes laundry that much easier which is always nice!

Yea I know right. this is the ONLY closet they gave me..i asked for another and they said no way so i was like really where am I gonna put ALL the rest of my clothes soooo.....

I had to shove them under the bed!! hahahah

Oh ya know just threw some bags on the wall cuz I hate white its boring.. funny story they told us we couldnt use pins or nails or basically put anything on the walls.. ha didn care :)

The crown on the left was my moms from miss mini cassia :) ha and the one i wore to prom

Right next to my bed, I just love this quote

and my night light because I am to lazy to get outta bed to turn the light on in the night

Heres my itty bitty bed haha

and this is where i get ready... sorry its really messy and didnt feel like cleaning for the picture ha

My cute little pink chair

My photoboard Caitlyn made me before I moved :)

and well this mess... is my fridge and microwave and tv etc... ha i needa go get some groceries its lookin kinda bare.. oh and messy of course!

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I have since decided that I want to become a dental hygeniest! Hahah told you I would change my mind of course, but I feel like this is a good feild for me. Its a two year program plus two years generals, but I finally got my transcripts transfered from when I did dual credit in high school.. and I only have like one year of generals Im thinkin so then I can apply to te dental hygene school :) School isnt that hard to be honest.. like i realy feel like i am in high school except sometimes i look over and there is like a 50 year old person sitting there! Ha all my classes are really small like at most MAYBE 50 people.. the walking situation SUCKS i feel like i walk 4 miles just to get to freakin class!
My schedules easy tho haha it goes like this:
Monday: 8-8:50 Math 1108 & 9-9:50 Pilates (WAY fun class everyone should try it! kills your abs tho ha) & 10-10:50 Career and Life Planning
Tuesday: 10-10:50 ACAD & 1-2:15 English 1101 & 2:30-3:45 Survey of Art
Wednesay: 9-9:50 Pilates
Thursday: Same as Tuesday
FRIDAY: NO SCHOOL:)
its not too tough at all hahah its really nice actually! my math at the beginning of the year was IMPOSSIBLE like literally it was chinese to me the professor was a total JERK and didnt help at all, i left everyday lik seriously wanting to cry, i finally traded out of there into the math needed for my major and complete 2 weeks of work in 2 days! It was way easiar, i also took my first tests in math and art and got a 94% and a 97.75% i was way impressed :)

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The main thing I have learned since I moved out is how many people really will kill to see you fall.  Ever since I made the decision to stop partying and stop doing all the stuff my life consisted of for quite some time.. I have gotten more negative feedback than positive.. its really shocking to me how many people can try to bring you down, even when you thought they were the closest people to you.  People tell me how much I have changed, but usually they aren't saying it in a nice happy way.  They are more saying it like they don't like me now and I just think I am so much better than everyone which kills me.  Its not the fact of thinking I am better than ANYONE its more me thinking there better than the choices there making. Growing up this is how I was raised and when I was thrown off track that was the most unappy times in my life..  It tears me up that I have lost friendships because I don't want to do things that I used to but I have come to realize the people that don't want to support me, aren't my true friends anyways! I have the people in my life that I need and thats all I am worried about.  It makes me sad to also think even sometimes I feel some of my own family doesn't support me.. but thats there problem and I am going to continue to make wise choices with my own life, and they can live theres :) I have never been happier with my life and I finally feel like someone that people can look up to! I feel like my life is finally stable and on the right track, and thats the best feeling EVER!

Thank you so much to everyone that is there having my back, you know who you all are, and I LOVE YOU!! :) ♥

I promise to try to keep updated.. haha if you guys promise to keep reading